December 16, 2003 -

At the moment my sad and pathetic life is exactly that. I forgot how hard it is to move to a new country where your only friend is the guy you used to lust over, and this sucks as now that he is seeing another girl, who is way fucking intense (think Nat Lang when drunk, that's how bubbly this girl is!), but she's cool, so I'm on a look but no touch basis with him! Oh yeah, and somehow, he's not actually told her that we used to be a lil more than mates, which means it's easy for me & her to get along....
IT'S FUCKING HARD MAN! Making it worse is that I'm staying in various different bedrooms/couches in his place. The bad thing is that Adam & Pete his Zim/South African/Canadian flat mate (he's cool) want me to take things slowly and hang around here, whilst they try to convince the couple here, Jess and Sandy, to let me have their spare room, bringing everyones rent down to about nothing. And on Sunday we spent the whole day curled up on the couch together, just head to toe on the couch, watching Igby goes down & Spun ( i liked both). Bit of foot tickling later on (Adam can't believe my feet are not ticklish at all, he's hyper ticklish), that's it. But it feels so nice and natural.....god, we must have spent about 6hours on that couch, really excellent couch though, just wide enough for 2 people. Which makes me think, he doesn't quite know what he wants either. Either that or it's just a close proximity thang. Grrrr. I don't know what I want either, but you always want what u can't have, so if I just keep reminding myself it will get easier. Or go in for the kill. I'm sure it will sort itself out one day when we're both trashed.
Speaking of hard men, i was downtown and saw a flyer for a Brit Pop/Mods club night - its got Vinnie Jones grabbing (i think its) Teddy Sheringhams nuts. Where ever, it will be the first artwork that goes up on my wall. Nice.
So you got my first snowboarding report. FUCK! The pain captain the pain! It was all fun and games until my knees started going in wrong angles during my crashes, but surprisingly they were fine the next day. I get so scared once I build up speed, cause I can't fucking figure out how to stop the stupid board. Bastard board never does what I want it too! Bar going fast!
It seems tickets for the Distillers have sold out, the shows tonight, I should be going cause they are cool, and I shouldn't be going as my permanent ring in my ears is exactly that, permanent. And its way more noticeable now....but I have a shitty cold and that prob isn't helping anyone.
My last week in London was WELL WICKED MUN!
Monday went for cocktails that were superb in Covent Garden, cheap and potent. Tuesday went and saw Snuff, who I think are slowing down with age, but it was sad you weren't there! Chris came with me and we bopped about a bit. Wed, Lam had booked me for a secret gig....go to the pub and we head down to Brixton, and the scalpers announced 'Tickets for Blur' WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY COOOOOOOOOOOOOL! I'm not a major Blur fan, but the set they played was like a greatest hits collection, I knew far more songs than not. It was way way way cool!
Thursday was pretty sedate, great food for the girls I used to work with , our lil get together in South Ken. Glouster Road tube has some awesome rails for sliding down...whoooooshka! Almost took out my friends hand, but it was worth it with the sliding action available!
Friday night, me & Sarah May were off to the Strokes! Wicked! The Strokes were sooooo cool! Unfortunately, the lead singer is too cool to rock out. I think that is what's stopping them from being a proper rock act. The venue was Alexander Palace, a fab palace, up in Wood Green. Then we went dancing at the Underworld, which is always fun when your with friends. It was as to be expected the usual meat market....
Saturday night was just a casual dinner at my fave, Anglo Thai in hackney, followed by Pub in the Park, and then Maree (Flat 3) took us to a party up the top of Hackney, now usually the parties Flat 3 have are for me, not soo cool, too many stoners etc. But this one was full of some of the younger guys from Matthias uni course. Nice. Lots of perving to be done. Me & Jenny were pretty shitfaced by this time, I'd had about 2 cocktails, 6 girly drinks in bottles and then half a bottle of wine. So it was clear that it was time to start dancing. And then I noticed a nice enough looking guy dancing with me. Hmmm. I asked his age (didn't bother with a name of course..) and he said 21....I feel old now. Next day was off to the Church!, my god, I was soooo rank from the night before, no shower, hair not done, couldn't figure out how to do makeup so I just went au natural....jumped a bus and made my train with a minute to spare. Had fun, took my mate Nat, (she's the sweetest Essex girl, always up for a good time,) and OH MY GAWD! Paul, on that Sunday,i figured out where all the fit guys have been hiding. They were all at the Church. Me and Nats were constantly drooling! Aghhhhh....Liam & Sarah & Kristen were all there making the most of boozey drinks for breakfast!
After the Church, Liam & Sarah-May skipped home to pack up S-Ms flat, and the rest of the gals plus Andrea, we went to Waggas for dinner, hw could I leave London without one last Yaki Udon at Waggas!! Then Worlds End for boozey drinks...
And then it was home to sober up and run around like a headless chicken trying to sort out my luggage. Man, packing sucks and so does leaving.
But thats over now. Here I am starting all over again and I soo hope that I make some friends once I start working...I'm lonely at the moment....
Oh, I bought new cds the other day, couldn't resist - soooo cheap $14 for new Distillers (think Hole, but smoother) Jet $14 and The Thrills for $14 -loving it! 4 cds, and I did the conversion to pounds - 16.80 wicked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alrighty then, enough of my being pathetic, I better go and do something slightly interseting. I think lunch can fill that void.
I really should put on Adams copy of Blink 182 - enema of the state. Ahhh, so many classic songs of our late teens, early 20s. I heard the new song a few weeks ago and thought sounds like a Good Charlotte rip-off, and then the other guys voice came in and I realised it was Blink.
Make sure you get your ears around the latest Rancid, it is superb. Maybe try the Weakerthans too, I had a quick listen yesterday and sounds ok. New Saves the Day is out too. But I haven't heard it yet.